CONTROL

why is it that sometimes someone can control ur mind?
its bad......whats worse is that u dont even realise it,until its too late.
sometimes,someone can get under ur skin.....slowly,deliberately.
but by the time u feel him,...there is nothing more that u can do abt it.
u start thinking abt him n keep thinking abt him.....
nights rise into days n days melt into nights......
mornings get irritating...afternoons lonely.....n evnings sad.
u know that he is manipulating u.........
n smiling abt how easily u get manipulated.
he is not innocent....he knows what he is doing...but does it anyway.
u hv always depended upon ur mind before but now ur not sure,...anymore.
u keep thinking how 2 stop him....not let him get away with it...
........but u keep drawing blanks.
u swear so many things.....u scream so many times...
he scares u....n the thing that scares u most is the fact that .....
........he knows that he can scare u anytime,he wants.
u cant talk abt it...u cant think abt it as u think that he can read ur mind.
u cant tell him that he makes u lose ur sleep over him as then he will win.
he loves 2 see u suffer....turn n twist into the night......dreading him.....thinking him.
sometimes he disappears but then ur still scared thinking that he will jump out of nowhere.
he is on ur mind.....whether he is present or absent.
he is the master n u the slave.......
he is just a shadow...but heavier than earth...
he can make u feel guilty...when there is no sin...
n sad when there is no pain.
ur helpless....a pre-programmed robot.....
that listens 2 only his voice.
can u name this binding?this relation?this need?this panic?
u try but no word can encompass all the emotions...
then u realise that u hv lost ur capability 2 think without him.....
he made u melt away...what remained is he.
can u gather the pieces....probably yes...but can u reborne u?
eventually u get used 2 being directed by him....taken control by him.
all u can do is rest ur head on his shoulders n close ur eyes n dream...
dream abt the person u cd hv been...the places u cd hv visited....
things u wd hv felt...n seen n thought.
........dream abt the life u cd never hv....
but dreams end in the morning......n ur left with the a heavy chest...burdened emotions....swollen eyes n restless soul.