BEAUTY

mirror,morror on the wall.....
who is the fairest of them all?

what happens 2 all the rest''not so fair'' girls?no one cares but the world is full of them.
they hv double disadvantage.......they r girls n they r not fair.
they remain invisible..

they r miss sallophane.they sing......
sallophane...ms sallophane.....
u can look through me,n walk right by me,

n never know i am there....

thats me....n many not so fair girls like me.

i miss being beautiful.

beauty is creator's pride n viewer's delight.thats the first thing anyone notices.....physical beauty.


ya,ya,ya........i know what ur thinking......

internal beauty is more important than external beauty....is it really?
most of the people we meet in our life......know us briefly or let me say....they know abt us what we let them know.how many really hv a chance or truly care 2 take some time n know whether i hv inner beauty or not?

so most of them,take 1 look at my outer beauty or let me say....''lack of it.''..n forget me.
why wd they spend time n try 2 know me?there is no incentive.
beauty gives u natural advantage......ur admired,remembered.
n also ur expected not 2 hv any brains 2 go with ur beauty.so u dont hv 2 fight 2 stay in the compitition,in the world of intellects.

when people say...inner beauty is more important,,it is assumed that inner n outer beauty cant go together.so ....if u hv 2 chose one,chosing inner beauty is wiser.
inner beauty is beauty of ur soul...of real u.
ur thoughts,ur emotions,ur attitude,ur way of looking at life.
babies hv purity coz they r free of pretentions.they dont hate anyone,they r not jealous.they demand things by crying but dont get sad.
they dont sulk,dont pout.they dont think.dont presume things.so they dont misunderstand.
they dont get angry ,so can forgive anyone, in an instant.they spend every waking moment doing only 1 thing......surviving.
they can laugh for no reason...without bothering abt who is looking.
they r learning constantly,without making a big deal out of it.
they dont understand relations n surely dont need relatives.they love any hand,as long as it feeds them.
they can sleep peacefully,...irrespective of the worries n troubles of the world surrounding them.
they can happily stay naked whole day.....without realising that they hv shrugged all inhibitions successfully.
all their emotions r pure...no facade.they dont need much 2 be happy.
thats inner beauty.....in the purest form.

can adults get it?sure...but it doesnt come naturally 2 them like babies.adults hv 2 work hard,think hard n implement what they learn from life.but they can get there.
however long n dark the tunnel is......there is always light at the end of it.

so inner beauty is achievable by efforts....but not outer beauty.
ur either born beautiful or not.i am n always will be the way i was born.......''not so fair''type.
so the only thing i can do,...is, miss it.

i hv asked god many times........''why?why am i ugly?specially when my mother is so pretty?''
when i was born,my mother was struggling for 22 hours 2 give me life.i was born all black n blue.....blue being temporary due 2 suffocation n black being permanant skin colour.

when my mother took me 2 my great grandmother,for the first time.....it was a startling contrast.......
my very fair,beautiful mother holding absolute ugly me.my great grand mother gave 1 look n said.......''oh my god,vasudha.....how on earth r u gonna marry her off?''that worry remained with me n my mother all years till i cd actually get married.
if only i cd hv been beautiful!!
then she wd hv said......''now thats the perfect great granddaughter of mine.''
how outer beauty makes first impressions...n those impressions stay with u.

why cant i hv both?inner n outer beauty?brain n beauty?top ranks n guys going crazy?
why cant i be beautiful...inside out?
why world never cares abt ''not so fair girls''like me?
why we always hv 2 do something extraordinary, 2 get noticed?
why?why?why?
so many thoughts.....n questions.....unanswered!!!!!

then my only asset...brain... comes 2 my rescue.
says......''oh suj...being beautiful also hs its disadvantages.''
beautiful girls cant hide on back benches n read novels during lectures.
people feel sorry for them if they ever put on weight....then they r guilty of destroying what god created with patience.
if we ''not so fair''girls hv brain....its easily accepted.if they hv brain along with beauty......world is surprised n beautiful girls hv 2 prove everytime that their smartness is not by fluke.
they can never be invisible....they cant make mistakes...get mixed with the croud n be forgotten......just not done.
they always hv 2 take care of their looks....cloths...make up....hair...smile.they always hv 2 live up 2 their own mark.......unlike us ...who can go out wearing any cloths...looking anyway we want......no one notices,anyway.
if their husband is rich but ''not so fair''type.....they hv a 50% risk of hving ''not so fair''child.if they get it......its a shock.....unlike us.....who hv bare minimum expectations that our chidren be healthy.

''so,there......u see.being beautiful is not all amazing now,right?''my always logical brain explains me.
i agree...i hv 2.he is all there is 2 me.
so,i take a deep breath.....throw away all questions....n give my brain a smile of gratitude.

from there on,...everytime i see beauty.....i admire it....drink it with my eyes......miss being it......but hide it from my always smartass brain........n try not 2 show it,on my ,''not so fair''face.